When Curiosity Strikes

Have you ever felt like you have these tasks you want to do but they become projects left unfinished? Yeah, I hate it…

I can’t write.

I want to sit and blog with my re-runs of Tiny Desk on youtube playing in the background, a candle lit beside me with my green striped mug filled with orange juice. But for some reason, I can’t get a blog out of the drafts. I have plenty of ideas that I want to write, share, and express but I can’t find the words to tell the full story. Is this writer’s block or something else?

I mean cmon… Little Sister Syndrome, Friendships in your 20s, All Hail Mel and Trains (a metaphor for time)…. don’t those blogs sound intriguing ?? Say yes.

Yet for some reason, they are still in the drafts and have been since February.

I can’t help but think that even though these are topics I am interested in and want to write about.. what if I am finishing these blogs just not in the way I originally intended?

I have been engaging in my other hobbies more like reading, listening to music and painting. So maybe this is my mind and body needing to express itself in other ways because these experiences aren’t meant to be best understood through writing yet.

So many questions run through my mind but I keep coming back to this: what if unfinished and stuck aren’t the same thing? Because even though those blog posts aren’t written, it doesn’t mean that they never happened.

Not everything has to be finished the same way it started, and end with a big red cherry on top. Sometimes you just need to start something and find other ways to finish it. I started my ideas in my drafts and I have finished them through new experiences like adventures with friends, impulsively buying a surfboard, and allowing myself to love the other gifts I have. Being stuck in the drafts isn’t so bad because clarity comes after experiencing not before it.